[hopeless]

i think an ice cream can splendid my day.
but then, is just a temporary sense.

aim in the place of nowhere.hell ya!no place named nowhere.but aim exactly at nowhere.i lost my vital force, i lost my appetite,i lost my weng-weng time -being serious 24/7 is not me!, i lost almost everything that i loved before.

what is really happened to me?
i thing the burden that i carried is just too much!mybe 2 or 3 days short break will neutralize all the negative influence that i carried along this whole stressfulness day/week/month-hopefully!-.weekend is just too long to come for me.even today is a Wednesday.!!oh my~~


the hardest part that unwelcome to my life phase is ,aim not doing really good in my mid-sem papers.just ask me what papers?i can tell u within 1 sec!from hidrolik , to ethics then to management and then to design paper-it suck!. im just spoiling my grades!!!...listen,for the finals, i must work more harder if the mid sem marks are not helping.the final question is much2 more tougher then the mid sem question-everyone knows dat!.

now, i realize that.................


i keep pushing my self for this whole week.the worse enemy is myself!.stressing my mind to give a better performance in every tests so that i can maintain my pointer , straining my self to at least in the same boat with the smarter student in my class-although is just my phantacy!- and extra loading to become a someone special.-hell ya im tired for waiting someone who are capable to melting my heart!!..did i succeeds?dem!..i just so phatetic existence.

enough said.im tired.


for the guys out there,im single-sound desperate but who cares!!!...love is the best medicine.love can make a man become so passionte,energetic,fragile,independent ,strong and so on...what i need is a love. a true love...did i asking for too much?

for the studies.i thing the slower is better rather then faster and not knowing anything.=).chill my life .sure i will be happy like before.

**im singing a song named;If There's A Rocket Tie Me To It-snow patrol.**..bersangkut paut sgt.